I hate the sound of our neighbors' laughter.
Actually it's not that bad and I don't really hate it. That much. Tonight.
But just for tonight I also do not really hate myself for being the kind of person who does kind of hate the sound of people having fun, and scowls on the other side of the fence from it.
I'm just very tired. And I haven't gotten paid / Im missing three payouts / this is the third week in a row of no money arriving when I *should* have money arriving, and now I can't pay all the bills we have to pay tomorrow. But it could be worse. The neighbors *could* be louder. They *could* be yukking it up all the time, but honestly this is one of the few times so far we've heard this type of outdoor socializing. They are too close, but they actually *could* be closer. So there is much to be grateful for.
I finally forced myself to "contact support" today about the missing payments, and they did actually provide a modicum of support. More than is typical in this industry. They didn't resolve anything (I should've done something much sooner to help it get resolved), but I feel pretty safe in betting that it *will* get resolved and that I *will* get my money. If not this week, then next. And that I can continue making that source of income my primary money-making game.
If I were a REAL bitch, you know I'd have contacted support long before this. But I am not actually a real bitch. And I *will* be able to sleep tonight -- and fall asleep within a few minutes, even -- regardless of the laughing neighbors. Which means it all *could* be so much worse. But ... it isn't. And I am so so glad.
